Shinrin-Yoku, Outdoor Forest Bathing Coming Soon!

I had one of the most extraordinary psychic readings of my life today, and I want to write it out while it’s still fresh because it feels like something that belongs in the story of Lotus Moon.

My aunt Squiggs found this woman named Ann in Michigan who was offering free psychic readings over Zoom, and told me I needed to schedule an appointment with her, so I did.

Ann doesn’t call herself a psychic—she’s more like a past and current life energy worker. She looks at past lives and asks Spirit to show her whatever needs to come forward so the person sitting with her can understand their life now and heal old wounds that are carrying forward. It feels like therapy and past life energy work braided together.

She asked me where I felt stuck lately, either physically or emotionally, and I told her the truth. I’ve been building this sound healing business for the past seven months and I love it, but sometimes I freeze. I want to fill my sound baths, I want the bowls to work miracles for more people, I want the word to spread—but there are days I sabotage myself. I’ll schedule a sound bath and then never tell anyone about it. The heaviness of that silence lives in my stomach. Tight, anxious, like a knot I can’t untangle.

So I poured it all out. The self-doubt. The fears of other people’s missteps poisoning the well before I can show people what sound can really do. The pain of collaboration gone wrong. And then I told her about this sound bath event I did for doTERRA essential oils.

They invited me, through my good friend Karen and her cousin Leslie, to do a sound bath and guided meditation at their Shine Convention in Salt Lake City, Utah. Leslie and I led a beautiful sold-out sound bath and meditation sessions for four hundred people.

The giant convention hall ballroom was filled with bowls, music, guests lying down and soaking up and creating beautiful energy—and the experience was incredible. We also got to see Mel Robbins speak, which was inspiring and unforgettable. Tony came with me and we had a good time with Karen, sampling oils and talking business ideas.

But when I looked in the convention program, in print and online, my name wasn’t there anywhere. It just said “sound bath and guided meditation.” No mention of me or Lotus Moon Sound Spa. And when I saw another sound healer featured in a different part of the event, someone who hadn’t driven across two states with her priceless bowl collection to gift them a live experience; someone who lived across the country and wasn’t even at the convention - It hurt. I felt erased. At the time it led to a panic attack that lasted hours, maybe even days, but I pushed through it. I spilled all these anxieties out.

Ann listened and then closed her eyes. She said spirit was showing her several of my past lives - a lot of them, some wild scenes she’d never seen before.

Then Spirit settled on a particular past life, which she described with some trepidation. She saw me as an elderly woman, being punished for something I hadn’t done—locked in stockades, being publicly shamed, spit on, accused, humiliated. All because of a crime committed by someone else in my family. We were given a choice of banishment from our village, a fine, or a term in the stockades. My family didn’t want to relocate, but we couldn’t afford the fine. So, I had chosen the stockades as penance for my family member, so the rest of us could stay in our home.

She described how dehumanizing this punishment really was. Convinced of my guilt, the villagers were throwing buckets of urine and feces and rotten vegetables at my face, and screaming at me that I was vile and didn’t deserve to live. She seemed visibly disturbed by the scene she was watching and feeling with me.

Ann said I have carried the shame and humiliation, the anger and the betrayal of this lifetime into many lifetimes afterward, and I still carry those some of those feelings now, which leads me to the sabotage and self-doubt. Ann said in order to fix this, to shift the energy and allow it to dissipate, we had to go back to that moment and feel it again, so we could change it.

Ann said, “Step into this scene and really feel what she was feeling in this moment, like it’s happening right now and we can be with her. Let’s go to the woman and hold her hands, and tell her how sorry we are that this is happening to her. Let’s tell her she is so brave, and loving, and she doesn’t deserve to be treated like this.”

Then Ann asked me if there was anything else I could think of that I’d like to say to this woman, this former me, in that moment. I thought about it for a moment, then said I would remind her to have compassion for the people throwing filth and screaming at her, because no one who is whole and happy treats another human that way. They must have been suffering, too.

When I said that, Ann shivered hard in real time, got choked up, and said Spirit just poured golden light over the whole scene the moment I said that. She was blown away, said she’d never heard such a powerful perspective like that before. She told me I had unlocked the energy of that lifetime and my own healing with my incredible compassion. Forgiveness was the key, she said, and I was holding a giant golden one.

And I felt it. My stomach loosened just a little, like something was finally releasing.

Then she moved to the part about my fear of being erased. She said she saw a sort of futuristic or science-fiction-like lifetime where she saw me being almost vacuum-sucked from one planet to another, and she wasn’t sure if this was being done at my own will or not, but it was the root of my resistance to being erased, or even just dismissed or disrespected.

I told her I wasn’t quite sure, but something about this sci-fi planetary teleporting reminded me of another psychic reading I had with Tony a few years ago, who told us we’ve spent many important lifetimes together, the first of which was when we lived in the ancient civilizations of Lemuria and Atlantis, where we were half light-beings and half-humans, with advanced technology using crystals and frequencies to survive extinction and banishment from the Earth. As I deserved this lifetime I’d heard about, Ann said every hair was standing up on her arms and Spirit was lighting up that I was close.

She said she was seeing more fast-moving visions of lifetimes of mine, before settling on a forest. Green, quiet, healing. And then she saw a black widow spider. She said she thought Sprit was saying I’ve lived many lifetimes, and it’s like I’ve been slowly poisoned over many of them, so that now, I carry this fear or resistance to erasure or banishment with me whether the threat is real or only perceived. She thought Spirit was showing her nature, forests, was the slow remedy to the slow poison I’ve accumulated over thousands of lifetimes.

I told her that these words also resonated. while I had been walking around the Shine Convention, feeling invisible, I was drawn to a single oil out of all the hundreds they had there. It was called Shinrin-Yoku, named after the Japanese practice of forest bathing. It smelled like the forest. It was the only oil I bought. She got chills when I said that. She told me, yes, that’s the remedy. The forest. The trees. Nature. That’s where the healing is.

I thought about the two big trees in my backyard also, and about Bali, where I’ll be soon with my Aunt Squiggs. Maybe Spirit is saying to root deeper. To stop scattering my energy and trust what’s already been planted.

By the end, my stomach felt lighter. Not totally at ease, but softer. Ann didn’t ask me for money—she just asked me to write her a Google review if it resonated - and it did.

The truth is, the Shine Convention didn’t erase me. It launched me. It gave me the stage, the bowls, the start. Looking back, I see it the way Karen always did: as a platform. A launching pad for my new business and self confidence.

The next day. something else beautiful happened. Squiggs shared my blog about my resting with her other friend Lynda in Colorado, who does a lot of intuitive psychic work. As she was reading my blog, Lynda said she started receiving downloads, messages clearly meant for me. She sent back these words:

“I could feel as I read Jennings’ account that she is moving into her power and just encountering the things that need to be cleared so she can become fully grounded in it. The problematic experiences she shared are about boundaries, but they’re also about her fully owning her power and not giving it away. These things are coming up to help her establish those boundaries and to realize she alone is the guardian of her power. Spirit is the most powerful thing, certainly more powerful than anyone acting out of alignment. Anyone who is meant to find their way to Lotus Moon Sound Spa will do so. You are carrying so much responsibility unnecessarily. Your only job is to focus on your part—the joyous, guided, blessed part. All the rest will take care of itself. The more you focus on the present moment and release the rest, the more the magic and miracles can and will happen.”

Reading that felt like confirmation. The forest, the forgiveness, the bowls, the boundaries—it all ties together.

And I’m starting to believe that’s the real medicine. Not running, not hiding, not worrying about who copies or who misunderstands. Just rooting deeper into the love and sound and nature that are mine to carry.